Long weekends and the anxiety that come with them..

Hey, everybody! I hope your long weekend is/has been amazing! Mine has been awesome but, as always, goes so fast! I'm sitting here typing during a laundry break. I realize I'm not updating as often as I said I would. Life happens and the weeks get busy. So, I'm coming at you on the weekends from now on.

Do you ever get those sudden anxiety attacks when you realize all the stuff you HAVE to get done isn't getting done because, well, you want to enjoy life and not be tied to chores all the time? Yeah. I get those feelings and last night, they got the best of me. I started getting emotional out of the blue. I got cranky and I'm sure poor Dimas was like, "Oh man, what did I do?" I think my anxious feelings are a hangover from when I was married. I always wanted to enjoy my weekends and not do much, in regards to chores, and same for my summers. There were times when things would get tense in the household and my ex would ask, "Why didn't the clothes get cleaned? What did you do all day?" I mean, not in those exact words but those were the sentiments. Then he would get upset that his shirts weren't all clean and ready to go. Whenever he did laundry, he would just put everything through and pull all the clothes out of the dryer, and throw them in a huge pile and just leave it. Rarely did he try to fold the stuff. He would leave it all in huge pile for me to fold. No kidding, one time there was a pile that was about 2-3 feet tall on the floor. Really?! Was that necessary? So, now when I do laundry, I do loads of laundry at a time so I can manage them and get them folded. However, that does seem to take longer, BUT at least it's not a freaking 3 foot pile of laundry!!!

Anyway, I tend to suffer from anxiety on the Sundays (and Mondays of long weekends). I feel like the time just flies by without me even knowing it and before I realize it, the clock says it's close to bedtime and I have to ramp down for the night to start another day.

Does anybody else suffer from this cycle of emotions?

So, today, I'm going to do something I rarely do. I'm going to bake. Banana nut muffins to be exact. I never bake because I'm a sucker for baked goods (especially homemade ones), and also because of the dishes it causes. Ha! But I talked with Dimas last night, saying I really needed help when it comes to the dishes, so hopefully he'll help me out with clearing out some of those dish piles and help relieve some stress symptoms. I don't know. This could backfire. LOL Fresh banana nut muffins in the house and it already smells amazing because the first batch is done. OMG. So good. Wish me luck.